Jen Moody's Blog

Moving On

jenmoody — Fri, 11 Jun 2010 03:01:01 +0000

Well I have been extremely busy lately and I love it. I am actually enjoying life so much I had forgotten what it’s like to have a life. My new job is wonderful it is so great to be in such a positive environment where everyone gets along and all act like adults. I have time in the evening to hang out with my friends which I really had missed.

I started running again this week and so far have run 3 miles every day so hopefully I will back on track where I was a few years ago within the next few months.

Fertility.. well.. we are out of options for now since the next step is invitro which I don’t see anywhere in the near future. But eventually it will happen so for now I am just back to trying to enjoy life and so far I am doing a pretty good job at it.

Emotional RollerCoaster

jenmoody — Sat, 29 May 2010 22:02:17 +0000

Well I had my last day at Delta and it was sad but ok because I will keep in contact with the people that I really care about there. Then the next day is when it all started Wednesday I went in for my preop. In the middle of talking to the nurse I had another nurse come in and need to talk to her for a second. They came back and said they will not be able to do the surgery because I am pregnant. STUPID ME got excited. I told them there was no way that I just had my period that it must still be the fertility drugs so they called my dr. She ordered a blood test to check my HCG levels well sure enough they showed that I was 3 weeks which they actually considered 5 weeks pregnant. I couldn’t believe it I was so excited but I still knew in my own mind it can’t be right and I had been spotting also. So I talked with the dr she wanted me to come in the next day for an exam just to make sure. Well that evening I started cramping and bleeding quite a bit. She did an ultrasound and NO BABY she couldn’t really explain it just one of those random things once again!!!!! So they went ahead with the surgery to remove the polyp yesterday. Which I am now glad about cause atleast now I know that if I do ever get pregnant that a miscarriage will be much less likely. So anyways that is my week surgery is over with I am good and now time to move on with my new job and try to take a break from the emotional rollercoaster of trying to get pregnant for a while.

How Quick Life Can Change

jenmoody — Fri, 21 May 2010 01:55:54 +0000

I guess I will start with an interview I went to about a month ago. Not expecting to get the job at all I went ahead and went to an Interview at Southcrest Hospital well much to my surprise they called back for a second interview. Well even more of a surprise was when they called me the very next day and offered me the job. Of course I was still not letting my hopes get up to much because I still had to make it through all the extensive background checks that hospitals do. Unfortunately my “fun days” when I was younger was coming back to haunt me. But for once my honesty actually may have landed me the job I was upfront and honest about everything and went for the drug test and TB test and all the other questioning and got a call this week that I have the job. I am sooo excited. Back to the 8-5 world I have missed my weekends and my family so much. The only bad part is I have made a few very close friends in my few months of management that I am going to miss more then anything. It makes me so sad that some of these people have become so much a part of my life and now I will most likely not stay in contact with them as much as I say I will. But this is about my family and that is who I have to make my choices about right now. So there ya go there’s my news.

Next up obviously the last round of infertility treatments did not work since I am not boasting about that. It pretty much sucks since that is the last that we will be able to do for a long time but that’s ok I am just focusing on my family that I do have and getting back in shape for now. My doctor did say that I have had a polyp that has been growing for the past 6 months or so that she has been keeping her eye on and it could interfere with me getting pregnant or even if I did it could cause I miscarriage so she wants to do surgery to get rid of it. So since my boss and I could not agree on what we thought my two weeks notice should be he gave me one week before my last day. Well that worked out for my benefit because now my doctor has squeezed me in next week for my surgery yayyy. Things actually really seem to be going my way for now so hopefully this is a start to a great new part in my life

Graduation

jenmoody — Fri, 07 May 2010 02:13:06 +0000

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Well Remy finally graduated. He did such a good job. He has now mastered sit, stay, lay down, leave it, crawl, shake, sit pretty, and quite a few others. He is such a good dog, I think that the money spent on the classes was some of the best money that I have spent in a long time.

Other updates. I am in the two week waiting period for my IUI results. Much more numb to the outcome this time I have alot of stuff going on so I am pretty confident that if it doesn’t happen this month that I will be alright and that next year we will see about Invitro. Plus my doctor has been watching a cyst that seems to be growing so she wants to do surgery to remove it if this IUI doesn’t work this month. So who knows I guess we will see in time what happens with all that.

That’s about all that I have going on right now, well a few more things also but not going public with all of that quite yet that’s next weeks blog subject

Ready for a Break

jenmoody — Fri, 23 Apr 2010 02:13:18 +0000

I am so sick of medicines and doctors and feeling sick constantly. I went back to the doctor today to verify that the last IUI was not successful and of course it was not which I already knew. Soo… she says if I was in my twenties she would not do another IUI because I should have became pregnant by know but since I am older then sometimes it just takes a bit longer so we could try one more round ( if we decided) before we move on to invitro, which ofcourse I had to inform her that invitro is in our far future due to the costs. SO of course since I love putting my body through hell we decided we mine as well do it one more time because if we didn’t then I would feel like maybe that was the last time and it could have worked ( there I go trying to be positive again

So here we go one more month of pumping my body full of crazy chemicals and going through another emotional roller coaster. She did give me a little something to help with that also which I am not so sure about adding more drugs to everything I am already on but what’s one more gonna do right, just kidding kind of. But the point is we are going to try this one last time and then wait it out until we can afford the invitro. So hopefully soon I will either be pregnant or back to normal for a while.

Results

jenmoody — Tue, 20 Apr 2010 04:20:37 +0000

Well the official results are in. They have no idea lol. Kinda fits my luck. They think that there is a possibility that I had a twisted ovary that was causing the pain but like I said before they are not real sure but my new blood tests came back totally normal so whatever it was was just a random freak thing like most things that go on in my life. I guess that’s better then something bad so for now I will just be thankful that I am feeling close to normal again. Not much else going on here except being exhausted from being back at work so maybe on my days off I will get a chance to do something fun.

Emergency Room

jenmoody — Thu, 15 Apr 2010 03:03:38 +0000

Well I got to have my first emergency room experience and it was not nearly as fun as I always thought it would be. Sunday night after work I was having serious stomach cramps so Eric took me to the emergency room and they immediately started running all sorts of tests. We got to the ER at 11:00 Sunday night and about 2:00 Monday afternoon they finally decided that they were going to admit me and monitor me over night. That was some of the longest hours I had ever spent, those doctors bless their hearts knew nothing about artificial insemination’s so were just grasping at straws for hours trying to figure out what was wrong with me. It went from ultrasounds, to ex rays to more ultrasounds and ofcourse blood being taken every few hours in between. Their diagnosis’s ranged from tubal pregnancy to miscarriage to appendix which was not helping my stress level one bit. Eventually early Monday morning they took my advise of finding my regular fertility doctor and getting some advise from her. Thank God she got them all straightened out but she did want me monitored since my white blood count had went through the roof while I was there and was running a pretty bad fever.

Monday afternoon she called me and got me calmed down I could not ever ask for a better doctor she is truly amazing! She called and checked on me that evening and got me out of there as soon as she could Tuesday. I have an appointment with her again in the morning but I think the final conclusion was I got a infection from the IUI which ofcourse happens to less then one percent of people. Anyways I am all better now and just thankful that that experience is in the past and so lucky that I have such a wonderful caring doctor that makes me feel like way more then just a number. Anyways I will try to give an update tomorrow if I find anything else out.

Last Time

jenmoody — Thu, 08 Apr 2010 17:15:14 +0000

Well I went back to the money drainer oops I mean fertility dr today. I have been such an emotional wreck these days it’s crazy. I started crying just talking to her. It appears that I have developed a cyst on one of my tubes that she is starting to get concerned about because she thought that it should have went away by now. She does want to go ahead and do this one last insemination so I will be going in for that tomorrow. Unfortunately this is most likely the last one she will do she said if this one doesn’t work then we need to do some regrouping. She is trying a little different method this time then we have the last few times. Normally I go in for the IUI 36 hours after the “trigger shot” (shot to force ovulation) but this time she is wanting to try it early so I will be going in 24 hours so maybe hopefully our timing has just been off all the times before and this time it will actually work. Ofcourse as always I am trying not to get my hopes up but the past few times I have been pretty pesimistic about it so I am going to try my hardest to remain a little more positive this time and hope for different results.

Other then all that I still have my sweet little Remy which decided to be completely stubborn in class last night and refuse to do any of his commands. I am hoping that he was just burned out of the normal treats I give him so I bout him some duck jerkey that he seemed to really like. I just don’t know what I will do if he isn’t able to graduate his class and we have to take it all over again. Oh well if we do we do atleast he still brings joy to my day every day when he greets me at the door

Lay Down

jenmoody — Thu, 01 Apr 2010 15:52:35 +0000

Lay Down

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Well Remy learned a new command in class tonight. He now knows how to sit, lay down, look at me, take it and drop it. I wouldn’t say he is super great at any of them but he’s getting there. I have noticed since I put him in these classes he has been much better behaved which ofcourse makes me love him even more then I already did. I definitely have never seen a dog with as much personality as he has and I wouldn’t ask for it any other way.

SO on to the next subject, I guess since I started blogging about it I mine as well finish. Our unexplained infertility… I started taking my meds for what will probably be my last IUI. The doctor wants to talk to us after this one again and see what we do from here since she doesn’t really suggest any more rounds after this one. So I am praying for a miracle as I do every month that it will finally be my turn. I start back on stupid follistim (shots) on Friday so we will see what happens I guess. SO we will see. I am also toying with an idea of acupuncture that a friend suggested I am very scared of needles even thought that sounds silly since I am able to give my self one every day but who knows maybe that is the thing I have needed all this time, so as soon as I get the courage I may be moving on to that method. Well that’s it for now updates to come.

Bad Remy

jenmoody — Tue, 23 Mar 2010 04:13:09 +0000

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Well Eric took the day off today and apparently he didn’t show Remy enough attention. I got an email from Eric this afternoon with the title YOUR DOGG. I believe this was packing from a box that my laptop came in at one point but now is just confetti. The way I look at it was he was just wanting some attention. Eric didn’t admit to any major beatings but I am pretty sure that Remy got a pretty decent one. Ofcourse the first thing I said was awww my poor baby was just wanting some attention. Eric ofcourse thinks that maybe that is part of the problem that he gets to babied from me in the first place. So I guess doggy class should be interesting this week